Wait.
Wait longer.. ..and longer.. ...and longer.... and longer.
Light the cigarette...but just yesterday I felt like quitting. I felt good. I felt different kinds of feelings such as love, compassion, joy, understanding and sharing everything amaranthine to infinity. I saw the world full of color and a light feeling of levitating as powerful, meaningful, dreadful like the sun. I saw the big picture and understood it. I knew how to manipulate it, turn it to my will and digest it. Oh but like every "everlasting" sun I dried out. This is where today came in...
All these great godly aspects of my still mental mind have vanished. They have been replaced with "powers" none less equal gravity. Love has turned to hate, joy to depression, understanding to total self-dedicated addiction. This happy illusion of a everlasting god complex has made its intentions regarding my condition very clear. I know every human has two sides to them - good and bad if you make it black and white - But when you start getting groovy with what you could do if you let either side manifest you...like a symbiosis if you will. The limits are only within your mind. Again if you make it black and white it's sane and insane. Sane being the so well loved good and insane the bad guy. But what actually is insanity? Am I insane just because I feel and experience the world differently than you? How can you say my reality is altered when you've never experienced anything real? I'm not saying you're an imbecile and you've never felt left which is real. How can I say what is real when I've only seen it from the angle that this world has chosen for me. To believe this angle is where the choice comes in. To move on and go through this infinite wall of bullshit. The choice itself has already been made when we were born. The only thing we actually have a saying in is if we choose to go through and how we go. Here is where the same black and white come in. Of course it would be great if we could just cruise on the golden covered highway and chill the fuck out, but no....that will not happen. We need to make a conscious kick to our mental unconscious.
So sane or so insane?
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