Release the wheel!

Another night, another senseless feeling. i've decided to write in english from now on, so give me some slack if I write a word or two wrong. I feel like I'm a fifth wheel under there, I allways try to help people and be there for them. Most of the times I succseed, but the thing that hurts is that I get alittle in return. Well, if You're helping other people, then you do it with a reason to help that person, not with a reason like" Hey I helped You, now You must help me!" No, its not like that at all, at least not with me! I do it with a thought of helping someone and being there for them, and in the end seeing that they'r good and happy, well..that's a really good feeling. But I feel that by helping others, I'm leaving myself to die. But hey, so what! Lately I have been speaking with an really amazing person, She's like a breath of fresh air. Yes, if You're reading this, then You'll know I'm talking about You. *smiles*. With You I can really talk about everything, thank You. I truely care for You! I will try to write more often now.